Cycle 2/ Phase1/ Day 10

My weight loss has slowed a bit, but hopefully it stays steady.  I'd really like to average more this cycle.  I guess it doesn't matter, but it does to me.  On another note.  I made leeks today for the first time and I really like them.  I wasn't sure I'd like them, but they were actually good!  I am a little sad that it really only made one serving.  I will have to go to the store and get some more.  I need to start preparing some meals for when I am traveling this coming weekend.  This may be tough.  I plan to portion everything out and take it in a cooler with me.  The drive should only be about 4-5 hours, so I think I'll be fine.  I'm pretty certain that I'll be able to make suitable choices even if we do go out somewhere.  So, that's the plan anyway...  I messed up the totals on the table, so I'll update that tomorrow. 


-0.8

Cycle 2/ Phase1/ Day 9

You would be soooo proud of me!  I went out with my friend last night and brought my own food.  I actually ate it in the car, so that I wouldn't be hungry and then tempted when we got there.  I splurged with a Diet Coke and had the tip of her piece of pizza.  Haa!  I had fun though.  I do think it would have been a little more fun with a drink, but oh well!  Not worth it to me.  So, nothing much to say. 

-1

Cycle 2/ Phase1/ Day 8

Storms again today with crazy, crazy wind.  Another tornado watch.  I know it's not likely that we'd get another tornado so close to the last, but nothing is certain.  The planet is changing and things are not what they used to be.  The animals aren't going crazy, but the squirrels don't sound happy.  I think it doesn't help that we keep hearing sirens off and on, on post.  Anyway...  I'm going out tonight with a good friend.  I seriously need a little time just for me.  I don't really want to be away from R, but I just need some rest.  So, I'm not really sure I want to go out because I won't be resting at all.  If I go out the temptation to cheat will be there.  I don't want to cheat, but I do want to.  Will it be worth it?  Probably not.  I've been doing well the past couple of days.  My weight loss has been strong and steady.  I'd like to keep it that way.  I think I may just do half of my dinner at dinner and then pack the rest to bring with me.  Here's my loss for today--


-1.6

Myth: Hcg Diet is a starvation diet?!!

Really?!  That's not the whole apple, and I'd already had a bite of the meat before I thought to take a pic.  With the program you eat 4 oz/ 100 grams of protein, vegetables, a piece of fruit and one carbohydrate.  There is a list of acceptable items of each.  I'm not sure how they work together to make this program work, but they do!  This may not look like a lot, but believe me it really is.  I'm actually eating this as I type.  I'm having a hard time finishing the apple.  Taking the Hcg is what keeps you from getting hungry.  If you didn't take that, you would be famished.  I can see why if this was what I was eating twice a day and not taking the Hcg, people would think it's a starvation diet.  It would be.  The Hcg pulls about 3000-3500 calories from the abnormal fat into your bloodstream.  It's able to be used immediately for fuel, so your body doesn't need to consume more than 500 calories by mouth.  If you're like me, that goes against everything I've ever been told about weight loss.  But... it works.  It does.  I wouldn't be doing my second cycle if it didn't.  The average weight loss is 0.5 - 1 lbs a day.  Read Dr. Simeons protocol.  He explains it much better than I ever will be able to.  This program has been used for about 50 or 60 years and thousands of people have been helped.  I wish it was more mainstream.  Unfortunately, pharmaceutical companies and food companies are making millions of of overweight people.  So sad.  Maybe tomorrow I'll do another myth. 

Cycle 2/ Phase1/ Day 7

Well, I sure hope I don't have all the stalls I did last time.  I know I won't lose like I did today, everyday.  Still, I'd like to lose everyday instead of every 3-4 days.  I'd like for my average to be 0.8-1 lb.  It was 0.65 last cycle.  Not bad, I know.  If I lost 0.8 then I'd be down about 32 lbs which would put me right at where I wanted to be for my original 90 in 9 goal.  On another note, I need to check my lotions again.  My daughter loves putting lotion on me and I let her this morning when I was laying in bed and wanted her to let me lay there a little longer.  When she was done though, I started looking at the ingredients.  This one has soybean oil and shea butter in it.  I tried washing it off, but I'm not sure how that will work.  I have another lotion though, that I hope is synthetic.  I would normally NEVER say that, as I'm into products that are as natural as possible.  I'm assuming my night cream isn't a problem since I used it the past two nights with no problem.  Well we'll see I suppose.  I really don't want to mess up this cycle.  I'm determined to meet my goal!  Anyway... here's my loss for today.

-2.2

Tempation

It's definitely harder this cycle than last.  The temptation is a lot harder to resist.  I think I was super motivated last time.  I am this time too.  If I wasn't I wouldn't be able to do this.  It takes a lot of work and preparation to be successful.  At least for me it does.  I'm a little worried about the traveling I'll be doing next week.  I'm sure I can make good choices, but you can't control how someone else cooks the food when you go out.  Well, I guess I'll cross that bridge later.  For now I'll just go day by day. 

Cycle 2/ Phase1/ Day 6

Already lost a little.  Not much.  I didn't do well with drinking water, so I'm not going to complain.  It will be nice to get below median and stay below it though.  No amazing thoughts today.  Just wanted to update.  I can tell already that it's going to be much easier to get through without hunger.  For the record, in case anyone here hasn't read the old posts... The last cycle I did have hunger issues the first couple of days, but most people don't.  Everyone I've talked to and read about have no hunger.  I was able to overcome that by switching some of my food around.  I would have my protein in the morning and either the rest at lunch or just my fruit and carb at lunch.  So, even though I talk about hunger, there are ways of working things out so that won't be a problem.  I think first though you have to figure out if you're truly hungry or if it's just habit to eat first thing.  Are you really hungry, or are you bored?  So, I'm doing much better this cycle.  I don't know if it's the 4 load days or if I'm just getting used to this.  Who knows?!  I guess it doesn't really matter.  So much for not having any thoughts.  Haa!


-0.8

First day w/VLCD - update

Today went really well.  I have to get back into the habit of drinking half my weight in ounces though. (Water that is)  Other than that it should be fine.  I just wish I could sleep at night.  I was sooo tired this morning.  It was ridiculous.  I wasn't as hungry as I was the last cycle on the first day of the VLCD.  In fact, it was fine.  Definitely some emotional hunger, but that was it.  I'm super hungry right now, but my dinner is almost done!  I sometimes worry about whether or not this program is for real.  Then I remember the results.  I look at the success of the other people in the group.  It's hard to hear the negative things that I read or watch.  I also think that if it isn't for real it doesn't matter.  It's real to me.  It's working for me.  So, that's really all that matters.  I remember this past 2 phases and how I was able to eat SO much and not gain or I'd lose some.  If it didn't work, I wouldn't be able to eat that much and not exercise.  I should have exercised, but I was super lazy.  Well, that's it.  I'm going to sign off here and eat some yummy dinner!

Cycle 2/ Phase1/ Day 5

Oh man!  I have such and early bird.  Well, today is here!  My new cycle has started, but now comes the VLCD.  That's the part that was hardest for me in the beginning of the last cycle.  I had a hard time with hunger some days and the first two days it was nearly unbearable.  (Which is unusual, just so you know!)  I know now what I can do to help that.  I think I'm going to have my fruit and bread stick this morning.  If that doesn't help, I'll start eating my protein in the morning.  Ok, so today is not supposed to be a weight loss day.  Yesterday was the last load day and in true load day fashion, I gained.  I'm still having scale trouble.  Again, I've gotten different numbers!  This is with my new scale!  I don't get it.  I really don't.  I may call the company and see what they suggest.  Anyway... I weighed, then forgot to use my profile on my scale so i set that and weighed again.  Two different numbers.  I weighed again... Different (but same as the first.)  One more time, the same as the second.  I don't know.


Daily loss   +.6

Insomnia

Here I am again, not able to sleep!  Believe me I want to, but I'm just a giant bag of anxiety.  Ugh!  So, I figured while I'm here and totally loopy from exhaustion I'd go ahead and explain a little about my emotional issues with food. 

I am a food addict.  I went to an OA meeting once and never went back.  I guess I just wasn't ready to do the 12 step program for my addiction.  It did help me realize I am an addict though.  The tough part about being addicted to food is that you actually do need it to survive.  I wasn't always like this though.  I've had several traumas in my life.  The way I've handled my anxiety and depression has always been food.  Or smoking.  (I don't smoke anymore, but there is a pack that I keep for emergencies.  I can't let them go.  They're stale though, so even if I "needed" it, they would probably be horrible!)  Anyway....  several years ago I was bulimic.  I was pretty skinny.  I still didn't love the way I looked, but I was probably the most satisfied with my body than I have ever been.  That bulimia led to anorexia.  I'm not sure how long it all lasted.  Off an on after that I would binge and purge.  Never like before.  I guess that doesn't matter.  About a year after the start of the bulimia I was sexually assaulted and then I flipped the other direction.  I don't know if I was hoping to keep myself hidden or unattractive by being overweight.  What's hard to explain to myself is that being attractive didn't make me a target.  I just happened to be targeted by someone that thought I made an attractive target.  Do you understand?  It's hard for me to.  Anyway...  The bottom line is that he wouldn't have picked the me I am now, I'm sure of.  The me I was then wasn't at fault I know, but it still felt that way.  I had guilt about a lot of things.  I think I chose to control the outside of my body instead of the inside.  Later on I had miscarriages, one that was particularly horrendous. 

So! Stress in my life = Control with food   That's the way it's been ever since.  I've done countless diets.  Worked with lots of trainers.  Now I'm crazy overweight and my body is out of sorts.  I'm doing this program to help reset my brain so that it can regulate the weight part.  I also need to reset my inner self to get ready for the me that's being protected by this outside fluff.  I have A LOT to work on, but I have some time to do it before I'm ready to be free of this program. 

This all brings me around to why I'm doing 4 load days instead of 2.  As I mentioned, I was anorexic and bulimic.  I've done tons of fad and low fat diets.  I've worked with trainers doing hard exercise while also eating very low fat.  All of that could have depleted or removed some of the normal and structural fat in my body.  My heels were hurting while wearing certain shoes up until about a month ago.  I wear those same shoes now, and I'm fine!  (I didn't notice this until just the other day.)  Why?  Because I've been doing all these crazy diets and so even though I was losing fat and weight, I wasn't losing abnormal fat!  I was losing normal fat.  Structural fat even.  Not good.  So, the last 4 days I have eaten full fat meals.  (I have also had junk.  That was more of an emotional thing though.  Feeling like I was going to be deprived.  Something I need to work on.)  I'm building those normal fat stores so I will be able to lose that abnormal fat a little more regularly this cycle.  If all this sounds crazy or absurd to you, please consider reading Pounds and Inches by Dr. Simeons.  You don't even have to buy it.  You can find it online for free.  He started this protocol over 60 years ago and it has worked for thousands of people.  He explains the science behind his protocol.  It's fascinating and an easy read.  Believe me... I have a 3 year old!  Better yet, come to one of our Skype meetings or do a conference call with Tom and Vicki.  What have you got to lose?  Nothing but weight!

Cycle 2/ Phase1/ Day 4

Last load day!  I'm actually ready to begin the VLCD.  I have a couple of meals made already and others are prepared.  I'm actually starting to not be quite as hungry.  Maybe this will actually be a good thing that I did the 4 instead of 2 load days.  Maybe I won't be so hungry when I start tomorrow.  Anyway... I got a new scale.  I found a place where it can permanently reside.

This is my new weigh station.  It's also a new scale.  My old scale would give me a different answer each time.  I might as well have been using a Magic 8 Ball.  Ugh!  Anyway... I first tried it and it was weighing me about 4.5 more than the other.  I put them side by side in the new spot and tried it again 3 times and now it's about 1lb less.  So, I think it will just have to stay there.  I'm not sure how to document the difference.  It's only a pound, so will it matter?  I don't know.  So that's where I am.  I actually lost 2 lbs when I weighed this am.  I'm not sure if that's true.  Tomorrow will be a new day!


I think I may only update the amount lost per post and then post a table at the end of one week.  Like the one below. 

DATE	CYCLE DAY	CURRENT	DAILY LOSS	THIS CYCLE	TOTAL
04/21/11	1	219.5	0	0	15
04/22/11	2	219.5	0	0	15
04/23/11	3	221.5	2	2	13
04/24/11	4	219	2.5	2.5	15.5

Fear

I just have to mention that I'm scared to start the VLCD part on Monday.  I have no idea why.  I guess I"m scared to fail.  I don't know.  I'm more nervous this time than last time.  I was excited and motivated last time.  I'm still motivated, though not as much.  I think I'm starting to feel overwhelmed with the amount I need to lose.  I'm hoping that this cycle is a little more productive than the last.  I can't complain really.  I lost on average .65 lb a day.  That's not at all bad.  I'm just hoping to make it more like 1 lb a day.  That would be good.  I'd also like to have fewer stalls.  That was driving me crazy last time.  Seriously, I thought I was going to come unglued a few times when I looked at the scale. 

I finally went shopping today and got the food I needed.  I prepared a few meals already.  I made triple the recipe for the shredded beef.  That's my favorite.  I made a double batch of the lemon chicken recipe.  I need to make a few more things, but for now I think I'm prepared.  I'm going to make the meat balls and sauce.  I am traveling after this week, so I need to be able to pack my food in a cooler and take it with me.  My hotel has a microwave and a fridge.  I should be ok.  Anyway... I'll talk about that later.  For now, I'm going to lay down and relax a bit.  Maybe have something fatty. ;-)  I can you know!  It's my load day.  I have one more.  Maybe I'll go more into why I'm doing 4 instead of 2.  We'll see. 

Cycle 2/Phase 1/Day 3 (Load Day)

Third load day.  I like these load days, but I'm ready to start.  I don't have my meals made or a new scale though, so I'm going to have to wait.  I seriously need a new scale!  I weighed this morning and it said I gained 4lbs since yesterday!  I weighed 4 more times and it gave me a different answer.  I got 3 of the same, so that's what I'm going with.  See?  I changed the battery a couple of weeks ago.  Anyway....  It's funny that I'm back here again.  I wasn't sure if I would continue or try going to a doc to do this.  I'm taking my drops and I certainly don't feel hunger free yet.  I had a hard time with that last time though.  So, hopefully it won't take as long since I'm doing 4 load days.  What I found that worked for me, was to do the protein first thing in the morning.  So, I'll probably do that most days.  Splitting up the drops didn't help that much.  For anyone not familiar or wondering what I'm talking about, I'm doing the Hcg diet.  I've been working on this since late Feb. when I started this blog.  It's working for me and I have seen amazing results.  It really works!  Even when I added all the foods back in and ate when and what I wanted I still didn't gain!  I ate some crap too.  (Which I shouldn't have.  I am now trying to work on the emotional side of making good decisions.)  Fortunately, when I make crappy decisions I'm not gaining.  Except today, but it's a load day and it's normal and even expected to gain a couple of pounds.  So, I'll get on with the weight update.





Weight:  221.5/+2/-13

Cycle 2/Phase 1/Day 2 (Load Day)

Still loading.  I'm going to do 4 days of loading.  That's good and bad I suppose.  Good because I have to get groceries still, but bad because I really just want to get on with it.  Anyway... not much to say today. 



Weight: 219.5 (Still didn't get a new scale)

Cycle 2/Phase 1/Day 1 (Load Day)

Well, today is my first Load Day.  That's always fun, but I've not been doing well for Phase 3.  I really haven't.  With the tornadoes and not having anything in my fridge and other emotional issues, I was just eating junk all during Phase 3.  So, I'm not really sure I need to do Load Days, but I'm going to do what the program says.  I know it works.  I'm more nervous this time around.  Well, I'm not so sure about that.  I suppose I should start off this phase right by posting a pic, weight and measurements.  My weight may change tomorrow, because I need to get a new scale.  I am looking forward to eating more veggies and fruit.  I don't know why I felt like not eating them this last phase.  I was craving them during Phase 2.  I think part of the problem is that I stopped planning my meals out.  That would have been a huge help.  So, this time I plan to plan even after Phase 1.  I have to remember my goal.  90 in 9.  90 in 9.  I may not reach the 90 with this program, but I plan to work hard.  I'm hoping that there will be a noticeable change after this cycle.  I plan to do it for 40 days this time.  One step at a time.  Tomorrow I go grocery shopping.  I have NO food in my fridge.  See?

I had to toss just about everything since we had no power.  I probably should have tossed the probiotics, but I think they're going to be ok.  Some of that I put into the freezer.  Anyway....  Here's some other photos.

I don't feel like there's a whole lot of difference between the beginning of Cycle 1 and now.  I don't think I'm sucking in my gut.  I tried to relax.  I've been sucking in for years though, so it's second nature.  I tried to wear the same clothes too.  I couldn't find the black top, so I had to use this one.  Excuse the messy dining area.  I'm not very motivated lately.  Feeling a little depressed and overwhelmed.  So..... here's my start. 



Weight: 219.5  (+2 over median, but I know that doesn't count right now since this is the first day of Cycle 2)  I'd love to be under 200 at the end of this phase.  If I lose at the same rate as last cycle I should be at about 193.5.  So fingers crossed!

Cycle 1/Phase 3/Day 7

I have GOT to go shopping for this next cycle.  I'm supposed to be doing my meal plan and shopping list, but you see what I'm doing instead.  Anyway... I think I'm going to get a new scale too.  I really do think mine is not ok.  Today I weighed 3 times in the same spot and got two different weights a pound apart.  So, that stinks.  Oh!  I don't think it's the vitamins after all.  I'm not sure what is giving me the heart burn.  Sigh... It's less now that I'm not taking the vitamins, but not gone.  OK! 




Weight: -1 (under median)

Cycle 1/Phase 3/Day 6

I haven't done well on this phase.  NOT. AT. ALL!  I still think something is up with my scale.  I may not have had very balanced meals this phase, but I haven't just stuffed myself.  I was weighing consistently -2 below median.  I'm now consistently +.5 over median.  I only didn't weigh one day.  I wasn't able to.  I'm not sure how I could have gained 2.5 in one day when I didn't change anything diet wise.  So, that's a bummer.  I'm not too upset though, because I'm only .5 over median.  It could be worse.  I think being exactly 2 under was incredible and probably not the best goal.  Anyway... I'm not having surgery after all, so I'll be starting Cycle 2 on Thursday.  I'm doing 4 load days and Monday I'll start the VLCD part of Phase 1.  I'm looking forward to starting again.  Anyway...


Weight: +.5 (over median)

Cycle 1/Phase 2/Day 20 & 21

Nothing much happened the past couple of days.  I've had 5 days of completely stable weight.  So, I guess it's locked in?  I hope my scale isn't broken.  I weighed RJ on it and it seemed right.  Anyway... it's super late and I'm tired. 




Weight: 217.5/-2 
 
I think I'll probably just post the amount over or under median for the next week or so.  Tomorrow I start phase 3.  I'm going to start my load days after my surgery is over.  OK!

Cycle 1/Phase 2/Day 19

I've been the same weight 3 days in a row.  I'm starting to wonder about my scale, but I think it's right.  If it's not then, I guess I've just done well at not gaining.  I'm just a few days away from adding it all back in, then starting over!  I can't wait to start over.  I'm a little concerned b/c I'm having my surgery and that may mean me not being able to eat.  If that's the case, I may lose more weight than I should and then the next cycle will be tough too.  Sigh...  Anyway, not much else is going on.



Weight: 217.5/-2

Cycle 1/Phase 2/Day 18

Well, according to my scale there was no weight gain.  I don't know how that could be.  I still feel full!  I feel like I must have gained 40 pounds.  Lately I'm not very confident that my scale is right.  I tried it 3 times though, and it didn't change once.  So, I suppose it's right.  That's about all I have to say really. 



Weight:  217.5/-2

CHEATER, CHEATER, CHEATER!

Little R woke up from her nap in a bad mood.  I was going to make a steak, but she wanted to get out.  I knew then, that I was going to eat bad.  I didn't get the the restaurant and get tempted.  I knew that I wanted to be bad.... so, I was.  We ate at a Mexican place that I love.  I only ate a few chips, but the rest was soooooo fatty and cheesy.   Well, it felt that way.  I had a salad, but even that was not quite as healthy as a salad should be.  It was so good though.  If I gain (and I know I will) it will be so worth it.  If I gain over 4 lbs it may not be.  That's how much I'd have to gain for me to be 2+ over median.  So, hopefully that won't happen.  We'll see tomorrow!  Just felt like I should clear the air in the event I wake up and I'm back at my starting weight.  ;-)  Haa!  (Well, I wouldn't laugh then.)  OK, fingers crossed.

Cycle 1/Phase 2/Day 17

I have a feeling that this next phase is going to be tough.  This one hasn't been too tough.  I haven't had any cravings really and it hasn't been too hard to make good choices.  I usually make one bad choice a day though, just to balance the good. ;-)  I guess I'm worried to add back in carbs and sugar.  That opens a lot of naughty doors.  I could get in a lot of trouble.  My biggest hurdles are going to be wanting something salty and crunchy.  I haven't really had those cravings, but I also know I can't have them, so I haven't given it a second thought.  It's a few days away though, so hopefully I can just keep in mind how hard I've worked and what my goal is.

This is not the best quality picture.  I don't have any sort of editing software on my computer, which is a bummer because I have a mac.  Anyway... This is my goal, sort of.  My goal is to have a slimmer body of course, but also no double chin, and thinner arms and legs.  I'm muscular and always will be, so I know I'll never be supermodel thin.  So...  this is my goal for the end of November.  I have a copy of this on my fridge.  It's also on my desktop, so I don't forget my goal.



Weight: 217.5/-2

A thought about the heart burn

I'd been wondering a lot about the heartburn issue.  I have never had issues with it, except during pregnancy.  I had it in Phase 1 a whole lot.  I continued to have it in Phase 2.  I thought it may be a gall stone thing.  That had been mentioned in September.  I noticed though that on the days I'd forget the vitamin I didn't have issues.  So, I stopped taking the vitamin all together and I haven't had it at all.  In fact I stopped taking the probiotic as well.  I'm probably going to add that back in and see what happens.  Multi-Vitamins usually don't usually make me feel good.  I may switch to Floradix.  They have a liquid vitamin that will probably work better for me. 

Cycle 1/Phase 2/Day 16

I'm still below the median by 3 pounds.  I'm trying today to eat more.  It's so strange to have this problem.  I'm not sure if it's for real or the scale.  I changed the battery because I was having some trouble with it.  I would weigh, but the numbers seemed off so I'd weigh again.  Sometimes if I weighed three times the weight would be different each time.  So, I changed the battery.  I hope this helps things.  Well gotta go!




Weight: 217.5/-3

Cycle 1/Phase 2/Day 15

Doing well.  I have a hard time with this phase, but not in the way I thought I would.  I thought I would have a hard time because I'd want to snack and munch.  The fact is, I am having the opposite problem.  You know when you hear those skinny people say, "Oh!  I totally forgot to eat!  I just got so busy."  I hate it when people say that!  I really do.  Drives me crazy.  I feel like they're just trying to make it seem as if they don't have any food issues and I must be low on will power.  You know what though?  I became one of those people!  What in the world?!  I have never  IN. MY. LIFE been able to say I forgot to eat.  Never!  Lately though, I have.  I think about it, then just don't do it.  My problem with this phase has not been gaining too much, but teetering right on the edge of the median.  I'm one toe over the low side.  Not that I couldn't stay up.  I'm just amazed at how much I do eat and not gain over the median.  This must be because my body has been reset.  It has to be!  So, I'm doing well.  I'm enjoying the excuse to eat whatever I'd like to eat.  I've even cheated a little here and there.  Not bad, but just little things off of R's plate.  Anyway...  This phase is almost over and I'll have a new challenge when I add the carbs and sugar back in.



Weight: 217.5/-3

Cycle 1/Phase 2/Day 13 & 14

I forgot to post yesterday!  Can you believe it!?!  Same weight for both days.  I've been so naughty and cheating every now and then.  I had a chip today, a crab rangoon a couple of days ago.  Little things like that.  It hasn't affected my weight, but I wonder if that's going to do anything to my future weight loss.  Guess I should put in a call to my sponsor.


Weight: -1.5 from median (217.5)

Cycle 1/Phase 2/Day 12

I didn't gorge yesterday, just ate naughty stuff.  Haa!  I gained 1lb back.  I still need to gain .5 so I'm back at -2.  Anyway... nothing much going on.  Tired as usual.  LOL!



217.5/-2.0

Cycle 1/Phase 2/Day 11

Oooopsie!  I'll figure this out one day.  I'm going to have to have an eating day.  Maybe I'll write more later.  Every morning I blog and every morning my kiddo acts as if I have never paid any attention to her.  She sleeps with me!  How can I not have paid any attention to her!  Sigh..



217.5/-3.5

Cycle 1/Phase 2/Day 10

Oh man!  I sooo cheated last night!  I had 1.5 crab rangoons and they were so yummy!  Fortunately there was no change on the scale.  Yay!  Well, my daughter is sick today, so I'm making this fast.



1.5 under median

Cycle 1/Phase 2/Day 9

Nothing new to report.  Well, maybe one thing.  I was doing a bit of calculating and I realized that the end of Cycle 1 and my Load days will be on the day I have my surgery.  So, I think I'm going to have to wait to do my Load days after my mouth heals.  Otherwise there will be no way I can load properly.  That may have been a problem or one reason I had so many stalls in this cycle.  I can't believe I'm halfway there!



Weight: 217.5/-1.5