Cycle 2/Phase 1/Day 1 (Load Day)

Well, today is my first Load Day.  That's always fun, but I've not been doing well for Phase 3.  I really haven't.  With the tornadoes and not having anything in my fridge and other emotional issues, I was just eating junk all during Phase 3.  So, I'm not really sure I need to do Load Days, but I'm going to do what the program says.  I know it works.  I'm more nervous this time around.  Well, I'm not so sure about that.  I suppose I should start off this phase right by posting a pic, weight and measurements.  My weight may change tomorrow, because I need to get a new scale.  I am looking forward to eating more veggies and fruit.  I don't know why I felt like not eating them this last phase.  I was craving them during Phase 2.  I think part of the problem is that I stopped planning my meals out.  That would have been a huge help.  So, this time I plan to plan even after Phase 1.  I have to remember my goal.  90 in 9.  90 in 9.  I may not reach the 90 with this program, but I plan to work hard.  I'm hoping that there will be a noticeable change after this cycle.  I plan to do it for 40 days this time.  One step at a time.  Tomorrow I go grocery shopping.  I have NO food in my fridge.  See?

I had to toss just about everything since we had no power.  I probably should have tossed the probiotics, but I think they're going to be ok.  Some of that I put into the freezer.  Anyway....  Here's some other photos.

I don't feel like there's a whole lot of difference between the beginning of Cycle 1 and now.  I don't think I'm sucking in my gut.  I tried to relax.  I've been sucking in for years though, so it's second nature.  I tried to wear the same clothes too.  I couldn't find the black top, so I had to use this one.  Excuse the messy dining area.  I'm not very motivated lately.  Feeling a little depressed and overwhelmed.  So..... here's my start. 



Weight: 219.5  (+2 over median, but I know that doesn't count right now since this is the first day of Cycle 2)  I'd love to be under 200 at the end of this phase.  If I lose at the same rate as last cycle I should be at about 193.5.  So fingers crossed!

Cycle 1/Phase 1/Day 2

Second load day.  I know it's totally possible to gain weight on load days, but when I stepped on the scale I was quite surprised.  I didn't go crazy yesterday at all.  This just reminds me of why I'm doing what I'm doing though.  Then.. I remember what my body is like and I'm not at all surprised!  You'd think if you ate less you'd gain less, but that's not always the case with me.  Just a week or so ago I was almost 7 pounds heavier.  I'm looking forward to resetting my body, getting my do-over and being able to not be a slave to the scale.  I will be for a while, I suppose, until I get at my ideal created weight.


Weight: 236.5


I wrote the above at about 8am.  It's about 2 now.  Why oh why oh why do I not feel like eating today?!  I have permission today to pig out and I just am not hungry.  Of course tomorrow, when I know I won't be able to, I'll just swear I'm dying from hunger.  On another note...  I have prepared all the meals I'll need to get me through this week.  I've cooked a few and others I have just prepared and portioned out.  The fish I'll be having tomorrow is portioned and the vegetables are cut up, so it should be easy.  Little R saw all the meat and nearly passed out!  That girl loves meat!  When I say love, I mean I had to swat her hand away from the raw meat because she was going to try to snag some.  Silly girl.  I'm beginning to think I should have double some of the recipes, but that's ok, I'll know next time.  It's actually kind of a relief not having the fridge so full I can't see what's in the back.  Food will probably not go to waste now.  That's always sickening when I look in the produce bin and it's soft and moldy.  OK, well the cooking is done, the kiddo is maybe napping and I'm going to find some fat to put in my body so that I'll be ready for tomorrow! 

Why Wait?!

I just got back from the grocery store, and realized... why wait?!  I'm a little late starting today, but never too late to load!  I took my hcg just a minute or two ago, and I'll just eat like crazy today.  That won't be a problem at all ;-)  Tomorrow will be my second load day, then I can start on Monday.!  I should be able to get most stuff cooked by then and I can keep going as the week goes on.  Most of the meals are crock pot meals thank goodness.  The others I can throw on the grill.  I CAN do this!  I will!  I just weighed in.  It's a little late, but I haven't eaten today.  I also have on clothes so that may change things when I weigh tomorrow.

Weight: 234.5